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Have benzos ruined your life? You are not alone…

By Don Killian

There is a world that most people do not know about. It is a hidden world known only to those who are currently trapped in it or who were once its temporary occupants who somehow managed to escape with their lives and health.

It is populated by individuals one might meet on any day and in any place – at work, at home, on the street, in the supermarket, at a party, in church, on an airplane… anywhere. Usually, these people appear to be living and functioning in the same manner and with the same ease as any other person. There is nothing outwardly remarkable about them that would give anyone the slightest hint of the absolute horror residing inside each of them.

Benzodiazepines: Demons in disguise

This is a world of suffering so horrifyingly bizarre that it defies a description sufficient for anyone else to grasp. In fact, if one has not experienced this suffering, he or she will usually find it impossible to believe and will question the sanity of the sufferer. It is a world of torture in which the sufferer resides moment-by-moment but which also resides inside the sufferer. It is inescapable. It is infinitely pervasive. It yields to nothing – no thought, no force, no trick, no drug, no tactic or strategy.

Nothing.

It is immovable. It just “is,” and it rarely relents or gives a breath of air to its victim. The fear that it wields and bludgeons its victim with is pure and wholly irrational. It is a snail’s-pace, seemingly eternal walk through hell on earth.

It is benzodiazepine withdrawal.

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Are you trapped in a personal hell brought on by doctor prescribed benzos? Well, you’re not alone. Learn more about the epidemic here and educate yourself on what doctors don’t tell you about benzos, and then share your questions or your personal story at the end. We’ll try to respond to all legitimate comments with a personal and prompt reply.

What are the most common benzos?

Benzodiazepines are more typically known as tranquillizers to the general population. Some of the more common benzodiazepines are:

  • Xanax (alprazolam)
  • Ativan (lorazepam)
  • Valium (diazepam) and
  • Klonopin (clonazepam)

There are dozens more. Benzodiazepines have been prescribed for many different symptoms including anxiety, panic, stress, post-traumatic stress, insomnia, pain, seizures, post-partum depression, as an add-on to other psychotropic drugs, and many others.

Why are benzos so bad for you?

Often, benzodiazepines initially seem to have a beneficial effect with respect to the symptom or symptoms for which they are prescribed. In fact, they may seem like a miracle drug providing sleep, calming anxiety and stopping fear and panic in their tracks. These astonishing effects may last for quite some time, but usually they are short-lived.

Quite often, benzodiazepines lose their effectiveness within a few weeks and leave one no better off than he or she was initially. This is called tolerance – when the drug no longer “works.” Typically, one is actually worse off at this point.

Increased tolerance to benzodiazepines

As tolerance is reached, the prescriber will often increase the initial dose of the benzodiazepine in hopes that a higher dose will re-establish the relief that was provided by the original dose. This usually does not work or may work for a short time until tolerance is once again reached, but this time at a higher dose.

At first blush, it may seem that one could simply discontinue the benzodiazepine and be no worse off than he or she was at the outset before taking the drug. For some individuals, this is sometimes true. They can discontinue the drug either all at once (called a “cold turkey”) or taper it gradually until it has been completely discontinued without suffering any adverse consequences.

Unfortunately, this has not been the case for literally millions of people who have taken benzodiazepines. It is widely known that benzodiazepines are extremely addictive and can cause physical dependence within a matter of weeks. Because of this rapid onset of dependency, it has been suggested that benzodiazepines not be prescribed for more than two weeks. This recommendation is often ignored by prescribers, and millions of people are now addicted to or dependent on benzodiazepines.

People are using benzos as prescribed!

There is a misconception, even within much of the medical community, that those who are dependent on benzodiazepines are hard core drug addicts who crave and seek benzodiazepines in an effort to somehow “get high.” Nothing could be more untrue. The people who are dependent on benzodiazepines are almost exclusively dependent because they were prescribed those drugs by medical professionals. They were neither seeking to get high initially nor are they when they need to discontinue them.

In fact, most who try to get off the drugs are suffering because they have developed a tolerance to higher doses which were also prescribed by medical professionals. The suffering is often extreme. The last thing the patient wants or needs is more drugs. Sadly, the anguish that is endured during tolerance withdrawal is often diagnosed as some sort of disorder resulting in the prescribing of even more drugs.

How do you quit using a benzo?

Q: How do you stop using benzos?
A: Get the facts about benzodiazepine withdrawal. Then, you’ll need to create and individualized plan.

It can be virtually impossible for someone on benzodiazepines to discontinue them. Multiple methods, ranging from micro-tapers which may last many months to relatively fast tapers lasting a few weeks, have been employed. The method used is often dependent on the individual. There is no “one size fits all” scheme. Under no circumstances should benzodiazepines be cold turkeyed.

No matter what discontinuation method is used, it is a near certainty that during the tapering process and during the ensuing withdrawal (after the individual has successfully discontinued the benzodiazepines), the individual will experience several of a myriad of withdrawal symptoms. These include both mental and physical symptoms which can be extremely intense and which may last for several months without the slightest bit of relief. In many cases, these symptoms render the victim completely incapable of living a life that would be considered even remotely normal. In the throes of withdrawal, many sufferers have referred to themselves as “zombies” – the walking dead. It is a very fitting description.

A truly hellish experience

Detoxing from benzos can be hell. While the victims of benzodiazepine withdrawal suffer beyond description, friends and loved ones who witness the anguish and who also care for the victim suffer in multiple ways as well. The victim often appears to be quite capable of functioning normally like anyone else, at least from the outside. When the victim insists that he or she is unable to accomplish or even attempt to accomplish the smallest task, it can be extremely frustrating to caregivers.

This is especially true when the victim complains incessantly and continually describes his or her often unbelievable symptoms of withdrawal. The sufferer is nearly always in a state of extreme irrational fear and enshrouded by a fog  of bleak, grey hopelessness. This is beyond perplexing to caregivers when they see nothing to be frightened of and everything to be hopeful for. There is also the matter of “benzo rage” that caregivers must deal with. It is demoralizing and can wear down even the strongest and most compassionate of caregivers.

You are not alone!

Whether one labels this problem with benzodiazepines as dependency or addiction, the profound suffering and ruined lives remain unchanged. Currently, millions of people worldwide have been prescribed benzodiazepines, and probably hundreds of thousands of these are in a life-and-death struggle with either tolerance withdrawal or post-benzodiazepine withdrawal. It is a deadly epidemic that has been virtually hidden from most of society.

Let us know you’re out there

Please know that you are not alone and that there is hope. We invite you to share your story in our comments section now.

About the Author: Don Killian is a survivor of forty years of addiction to alcohol and thirteen years of benzodiazepine addiction/dependence and the withdrawal from both. He is a former environmental scientist and author of From Fear to Freedom: A Story of Addiction, Misdiagnosis, Survival, Hope and Healing.He spends much of his time providing help and hope to others navigating the dangerous waters of benzodiazepine withdrawal at Merry, Joyous, and Free – a website “designed to help anyone who has been adversely affected primarily by benzodiazepines, other psychotropic drugs and alcohol abuse get to a place of happiness, joy and freedom…”

Photo credit: Allan Ajifo

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30 Responses to “Have benzos ruined your life? You are not alone…
Michele
1:54 am January 25th, 2016

11 months from cold- turkey from a 20 yr prescribed use of Xanax.
Still suffering from protracted withdrawal.

Evelyn
2:00 am January 25th, 2016

Will this hell ever end? ever!

Fiona
2:17 am January 25th, 2016

The addictive properties of benzodiazepines have been known for decades. I live in the UK. In 1988 the UK Government issued prescribing guidelines stating that bentos should be prescribed for only 2-4 weeks. In the 1990s thousands of patients tried to sue the drug companies but the legal action collapsed. Tv documentaries were made highlighting the dangers. I watched and listened to all that was going on but I had been prescribed nitrazepam for myoclonic epilepsy. I assumed this was a lifelong condition. I assumed I would have to keep taking nitrazepam. The fact that I was now an involuntary addict seemed academic. 40 years on and I was advised by my doctor to stop taking nitrazepam. I no longer have epilepsy. I am also free from depression for the first time in 40 years. Withdrawal has been hellish and I have been bedridden for over two years. My symptoms are purely physical. Numb from the waist down for a year. Unbearable nerve pain, head pressure and brain squeezes. At 18 months I was able to sit up without head support, at 24 months I was able to walk outside for a short distance. At 34 months my cognitive functioning has improved a lot. I don’t know if I will make a full recovery or not. I hope I do. It makes me very angry to see that these drugs are widely prescribed in so many countries. The dangers are well-known. I now see at age 61 that we cannot trust pharmaceutical companies or governments or even the medical profession to protect us. I feel that I have been such a fool but I now see that there are many other fools like me around the world. We were foolish enough to trust our doctors’ knowledge and expertise. It is a sad lesson to learn.

Sandi
5:38 am January 25th, 2016

I am a victim of my psychiatrist Rx benzos, then antipsychotic, then Remron all for sleep. Then gabapentin for wd. I’m totally toxic from these drugs. I need help please.

Alma
6:35 am January 25th, 2016

Absolute worst experience of my life! I desperately wanted to die! The ignorance and denial of the medical community added insult to injury. It should be required for them to disclose the truth of their addiction properties. I had 27 horrific symptoms for 3 years and still today, 2-1/2 years benzo free, have a couple remaining neurological symptoms including movement disorder that I wonder if permanent- although it is much less pronounced than it was and not noticed by others as much. I’m very angry that this can go on and neither the pharmaceutical companies who are making millions off of the suffering of others as well as medical professionals who are prescribing and destroying lives/ then turn their backs and blame the patient. This has been my personal experience. I would love to be part of exposing this travesty on both of these fields! I also want to be able to help people who are going through it. Thanks for hearing my story.

Desirree
11:56 am January 25th, 2016

I was on xanax for 20 years, started tapering myself and that did not go well, I was almost at the point of dying because my doctor or any doctor would not help me, until I found a wonderful doctor who tapers you slowly, He is a literal lifesaver for me…

Rita
2:34 pm January 25th, 2016

I found this information to be extremely helpful

Seth
5:40 pm January 25th, 2016

Very difficult 30 month taper from 4mg Klonopin. Now 35 months free (65 months total) and still struggling. Still disabled. Slowly healing. The last five years of my life were destroyed and it looks like one or two more to go.

Lydia @ Addiction Blog
8:16 pm January 25th, 2016

Thanks for the lovely words, Rita.

Karen
1:37 am January 26th, 2016

If a person suffers from anxiety and panic attacks ,due to a type a personality along with several life challenges,I do not understand why taking a prescribed dose,2milligrams per day,would be bad for them.If they are not an addict and don’t up the dosage.This is a complicated issue because I have seen people really benefit from “taking their meds”.Their lives have gotten better and more manageable.This is what a quality doctor and a plan for a person that suffers from anxiety can do together.Not everyone gets addicted and needs to up dosages even after years of use.I have seen it go the other way too,but usually with people that have a history of addiction.I personally don’t think people should suffer because others abuse prescription meds.This is a very serious subject. I have seen many people get sober from years of alcohol abuse and take 1 milligram of lorazapan once a day,and celebrates 10 yrs, of sobriety. She relapsed many times before she found a quality doctor that prescribed it to her.Addiction is a very touchy subject.There are others that get off alcohol and get addicted right away to benzos.Very debatable subject.Love to talk about it though.

Donna
6:02 am January 26th, 2016

I’ve Been Disabled from Clonazepam for 31 months. It was given to me because I had insomnia which gave me severe anxiety. I was taking under a 1 mg. 0.75 mg to be exact for five years. My Psychiatrist doctor told me it was very safe, it was a very low dose, I could taper off someday in the future very easily as long as I go very slow and I would be able to work. He kept trying to talk me into staying on it and I trusted him. He told me many people use benzodiazepines long time because they don’t have time to or don’t want to see a therapist or counselor. He said I could go up to 8 mg of clonazepam which is the max dose and by the time I would reach that dose they would have a new drug out that I could switch over to in the future. I Even asked him would you give this to your mom. He Said yes? I question now whether he likes his mom. I continue to use it for five years and see him twice a year to get my six-month prescription. With no warning 5 years later on 0. 75 mg I Went into the most horrific anxiety and depression imaginable at my home, I was alone. I was bedridden or on the couch for three months shaking not knowing if I was going to live. For 13 months my doctor polly drugged me with other drugs antidepressants Lexapro and Effexor up to the max doses made my central nervous system even worse. I was given gabapentin, then that was taken away and I was given amitriptyline, and I was given Zoloft. I was so fearful I thought I was going to be committed. Cried my heart out three times a day to let off the severe anxiety pressure I had and my husband of 39 years had to reassure me you’re going to feel better soon. My Husband suffered watching me go through this and trying to support me. I was being treated by my doctor and even my counselor like it was all coming from my thoughts. I suffered horrendously for those 13 months. I would tell the pharmacists how sick I was my primary care provider And a 0B GYN doctor that I needed to see. Over the last 13 months not one person told me it might be the benzodiazepine I was taking. I started looking up benzodiazepine on the Internet and I got very afraid there is so much bad information about these drugs. My doctor and counselor told me do not read about it online it’s only making you worse. I continued to feel like I was dying as I said for 13 months, my doctor wanted me to updose my Clonazepam, I fought it for months and finally gave in and I could not bear living such horror any longer. Went up to 1 1/2 mg it did not help I waited a little longer and then I had to go up to 2 mg it did not help. After 13 months I Finally decided to keep searching on the Internet until founed a benzo support group that is private. That is where I learned it was the drugs making me so sick and losing my life. They gave me a lot of kindness care support and a lot of information. I learned the best thing I could do is to start tapering off of that medicine. Must do it very very slowly.
I was glad to tell my doctor at my next appointment that I have good news and I wanted to taper off he was surprised and said can’t I give you something else. I said no So after 13 months I began my taper and these are the symptoms I have had below as I taper.
By the way 2 mg of clonazepam which my doctor said is a low dose is equal in equivalency to 40 mg of Valium. That is enough to knock four people out.
I have Overwhelming Anxiety and fear / panic
Need silence from The moment I get up in the morning and have to wear ear plugs all day
No tv radio, phone ringer has to be turned off
Small noises startle me, like phone ringing, a soft beep
Get stressed when I talk on the phone, must put it on speaker and only talk briefly
No patience
Wear ear plugs at times
Stomach aches
Fatigue
Nausea
Depression
Headaches
Trembling
Scarred
Hallucinations
Frightening nightmares, and sometimes can’t go back to sleep
Intrusive thoughts
Living so deeply within the misery and constantly trying to survive.
Wake up many times throughout the night.
Fear of how long I’ve been sick.
Fear I could not get through this without my husband
Brain fog – often can’t follow 2 sentences put together that are new, or are directions.
My brain feels scrambled, stressed and wants to avoid because it is to upsetting.
Confusion
Can’t drive due to safety. I’ve made mistakes
Can not cook, always did all The cooking for 39 years
Only shower on Saturdays when my husband is home
Tried to write out 3 checks with husband helping, ended up stresses and crying.
Cannot multitask
When my husband listens to voice mail on our answering machine, the noise upsets me, I plug my ears and want to scream because I can’t stand it
Cannot work, cannot spend more than a few minutes with my grandchildren my son and his fiancée my daughter and her husband and children. The last three thanksgiving and Christmas holidays have been very hard and I just want them over.
Cannot be a wife to my husband we cannot go to a concert a movie take a trip an hour away and stay overnight.
We can only talk briefly to each other. We’ve been empty nesters for a few years and it’s supposed to be the good times in our life I was very happy when our son and daughter bought their own homes got married and are doing well before I became sick .
I am now tapering Valium I asked my doctor if I could crossover hoping it might go a little faster because I’ve lost 31 months I have 24 mg to taper yet I’m tapering add a milligram a month and it is getting much harder I’m going to have to slow my taper down. By the grace of God when I get through this it will have taken me six years of my life away from me. And once you are off this horrible drug there is at least another 6 to 18 months of healing in your brain.

Ashley
7:50 am January 26th, 2016

I’ve been suffering from protracted withdrawal for nearly 2 years after just 4 days of iv Ativan use while in the hospital for pneumonia. I was overdosed and I had no idea I was even receiving this medication. No lawyer will take my case, nobody cares, and I wonder every day if and when I will ever feel normal. This madness needs to stop!

Lydia @ Addiction Blog
10:11 am January 26th, 2016

Thanks for sharing, Fiona. Hope others will read your post, and get the message.

Maria
10:32 pm January 26th, 2016

Horror, that’s how I remember w/d from Clonazapem. I had some issue before coming off which it’s hard to say if they were caused by Clonazapem, since I am off after a year of hell si lost a lot of weight. Is the Cicken or the egg? I don’t know. All I know that it’s evil, Clonazapen is the devil on earth. Doctors won’t tell you anything and in my case since I always ask questions they told me no to worry about that I will be just fine since I don’t have an addictive personality. It took me a year to come off 1-2mg. I took it for 8 years.

Pamela
3:02 am January 27th, 2016

Hello. I live in N.Ireland / UK & have been unable to get any help, support or recognition for any of my symptoms – from my dr or neurologist for 34 years. I was prescribed Benzos for 27 yrs for a prev misdiagnosed brainstem & spinal cord injury; due to unrecognised toxicity with serious symptoms & severe physical rigiditiy progressively effecting all muscles, my GP/dr restricted my meds & insisted c/t w/d. Muscles started to ease & relax but then (in 09) had a massive paralysing brainstem seizure & since has followed a serious & ever progressing all new ‘auto-immune type’ cycle of biochemical destruction effecting brain chemistry & dysfunction & directly relating to obvious physical changes & losses. Relevant SPECT scan November 13 showed significant abnormalities – diagnosis ‘likened to severe alz, dementia & Lewy bodies’ – but neurologist said ‘dont know what it means’ & refuses to contact an expert & simply ignore all symptoms & the related progressing damage since. Clearly my brain has an intractable biochemical dependence and cannot function properly without the meds & since withdrawal evidently attacks itself. To date I have been unable to get any treatment, help, support or proper recognition at all. When I’ve suggested enquiring from experts particularly in America of vitamin & iv supplements – Drs ridicule & ignore.
Any advice / suggestions u may have would be much appreciated. Thanku.

Garth
4:12 pm January 28th, 2016

Big Garth gets 90 1mg clonazepam monthly TID for panic attacks and generalized anxiety disorder. He is also prescribed flunitrazepam PRN for chronic insomnia, as Zolpidem (Ambien) and Zopiclone (Imovane) provide no relief. The flunitrazepam (Rohypnol) gives Big Garth a solid 7-8 hours of sleep nightly, and its anxiolytic effect has not dissipated at all for the four months he has been taking it nightly, thus requiring no increased dosage. Rohypnol is truly a miracle drug.

Don Killian
4:21 pm January 29th, 2016

Karen, you bring up some interesting points. First, benzos really should not be prescribed for more than a couple weeks. That is often printed on the inserts for most of the different benzos. The reason for this is that one can become chemically/physically dependent on them very rapidly. However, from my own experience and from the experience described in thousands of stories I have either read or heard from others whom I have helped in the past four years, benzos are rarely effective for more than a couple weeks. After that, one is typically simply dependent on them. There is a neurophysiological reason for that. I won’t get into that lengthy discussion here, but it is something that I hope to address in several videos on my website in the next few months. I think it’s something that needs to be addressed in a very simple way so that it can be understood and help to empower those who are going through benzo withdrawal.
I took alprazolam for anxiety and panic in 1997. It was a miracle drug for two weeks. Then it quit working and actually made me worse. Even up-dosing didn’t help. I was switched to clonazepam and a bunch of other psychotropic drugs. I took clonazepam for the next eleven years. I am certain I was in tolerance withdrawal that whole time, but I did not know it. Unknowingly, I drank more and more to lessen the withdrawal symptoms of the clonazepam – anxiety, inner burning, derealization, dizziness and many others. When I quit drinking, the intensity of the symptoms of tolerance withdrawal skyrocketed.
Of course, I went to the doctor and spent much of the next year and a half being told by dozens of professionals in the mental health system that I was mentally ill (generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, major depressive disorder) and needed the anti-anxiety drugs. That simply was not true. Despite their woefully incorrect diagnosis and prognosis, I was able to make my way to the truth that the drugs were actually my problem. I got off them by myself and endured the very long, hellacious withdrawal – even though they insisted that the withdrawal symptoms were indications of my “mental disorders.” Today I am more alive and happier than I have ever been in my life.
I know you will insist that others “need” the drug to live. Maybe you are one of them. During my thirteen years on clonazepam, that is what I thought and what I was told. Looking back, although I was functional, those were very “grey” years. I remember almost nothing from them with any specificity. Life was not fun or even enjoyable. I still had lots of symptoms that I thought were some of my “underlying anxiety and panic” surfacing, but they were simply tolerance withdrawal symptoms from the clonazepam itself.
I have heard hundreds of variations of my story in the past four years. I am not an individual who insists that all psychotropic drugs are bad and evil. But, I have concluded that benzodiazepines serve no one well over a long period of time (more than a few weeks). It is quite the opposite really. We are at the beck and call, the mercy, of the benzodiazepines. Sadly, it often takes a crisis to realize and accept that truth.

Lydia @ Addiction Blog
4:45 pm January 29th, 2016

Hi, Pamela. I suggest you consult a doctor to help you plan an individualized tapering schedule. Also, you may check out the Ashton Manual: http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/

pam
6:54 pm February 1st, 2016

I was off benzo for a year end up not recognizing my sons or myself or able to walk. I am only 55 in a nursing home. I am in theraphy everyday.

angie
8:36 am February 2nd, 2016

I would like to know if anyone has experienced balding hair loss, weight gain and loss , high blood pressure , cysts, diabetes , acne face and neck bad, dark eye circles, repeated kidney infections, and more after quitting benzos? I have had a colozapan for 10 months after taking benzos for 13 years. All of these symptoms seems like they me as soon as I stopped medication. My anxiety is tripled and I’ve become extremely agorphobic I now now studded when I talk at times and more . It’s he’ll!

Donna
1:12 pm February 4th, 2016

I have been a Member of several Benzodiazepam withdrawl groups for 18 months. I have made connections with many members and I have follow hundreds of tapering stories.
Your article is really spot on and many of us that are suffering horribly as we taper are greatful for it.
Your comment about the range of time being sick is not accurate. You have said “Multiple methods ranging from micro tapers lasting many months to relatively fast tapers lasting a few weeks.” Many tapers take years. If they are micro tapering it is because they cannot bare the torturous symptoms and must taper for a very very long time, such as years to get off the drug. The majority of fast tapers in our group have made the members so sick they cannot sleep, function, take care of the most simplest of their activities of daily living. Their suffering seems like an eternity. Many end up reinstating on the Benzo to safe their life and proceed slower. Any way you do it many thousands of people are so sick they have lost their life, jobs, homes, sometimes their spouse, their friends, and their family’s, because they cannot comprehend this severely debilitating iatrogenic illness that lasts so long could really be true.
To many friends and family it borders on unbelievable. But it is absolutely not. Many members are very saddened and hurt that their loved ones turn away, tell us just think positive, don’t let any negativity enter your mind. it will go away. You can’t possibly be sick this long. Just suck it up. There are so many symptoms as we suffer off of this, severe fear is one of the main ones. And there are days that you don’t know whether you can make it another day.
Support is needed so badly to get through this. Thank you for putting out this description of what we are going through to help us.

Kathy
2:20 am February 8th, 2016

I was prescribed ativan for insomnia after a concussion. I took 1 mg most days for 7 weeks. On the days I did not take ativan I sometimes took a half pill of the smallest dose of xanax. I didn’t like the way xanax made me feel so I threw them away. After the 7 weeks I still had trouble sleeping so I saw an acupuncturist. This was so helpful I stopped the ativan. I had no idea it should not be abruptly discontinued. One week later I was having headaches, dizziness, nausea and a disconnected feeling. After some online research I discovered it was ativan withdrawal. I saw my dr and she agreed and recommended a taper. I took my 0.5mg tablets and cut some in half. I’ve been on this dose 0.25mg once daily for 13 days now and doing fairly well. Every few days I have some anxiety or sleep issues and headaches. I want to cut the dose every 21 days or so.

I take herbal and homeopathic remedies to manage any symptoms. I also meditate, do yoga and qi gong. I don’t know how long it will take me to get completely off the drug but I am determined to do it. I missed several months of work after my head injury and am only just back to work half time. I cannot afford to miss any more work.

I applaud everyone who is trying to get off these terrible drugs.

Christina
9:50 am February 9th, 2016

I quit xanax cold turkey after a nearly 10 year addiction/dependence. I began to have nightmares (possibly night terrors), hallucinations, delusions, I would lose track of days of time. I’m not sure how long that lasted because of my total loss of the concept of time, 2 weeks or more. I couldn’t drive or even have stable conversations for about a month. My anxiety has decreased so much, it’s amazing. Are these common xanax withdrawal symptoms? Is it possible I had seizures or did brain damage though? I’m happy I did it but I still don’t feel completely “right”.

Tamra
2:58 pm February 10th, 2016

Im 6 years OFF ALL benzos and still very very ill. Cant work and i have 3 college degrees! This has NOTHING to do with addiction. It is brain damage plain and simple. Still people even within our own community dont seem to get this. I would rather die than put another one of those pills in my mouth. I have NEVER been an addict, never like meds. Took them for less than 2 years during an extreme life circumstance. Associating these poisons with the term withdrawal and addiction is the REASON why it is discounted by the public and is misleading the medical community as a whole when it comes to treatment.

JJ
12:55 pm February 12th, 2016

Thank you all for sharing about the dangers of benzos.

JON
5:03 pm March 16th, 2016

HEAD PRESSURE EVERY DAY (ALMOST CRIPPLING TOUGH TO WALK) TWITCH AND TIGHTNENING CANT STAND UP TOO LONG OR I GET WORSE–POSSIBLE CSF LEAK?(*RUNNY NOSE) 5 MONTH SOFF AFETR 20 YRS OF LOW DOSE CLON FOR 20 YRS NO DR TOLD ME IT WAS THE DRUG –LOST IN NEVADA, JON

Lindsay
4:18 pm March 22nd, 2016

14 moths off Xanax, 6years, cold turkey . Still feeling protracted withdrawl.

stephanie
4:32 pm June 21st, 2016

Four months off klonopin after taking it for ten years. Not sure how I’m still alive. Fighting fire my life.

John
9:30 pm September 11th, 2016

I stopped benzodiazepines cold turkey after 10 years of use. My psychiatric nurse practitioner (e.g. not a real doctor) was adamant to get me off them and wanted to prescribe me numerous poisonous SSRIs. I had a tough couple of days but months later my general anxiety is about where it was pre-benzodiazepine use – not great. We still don’t understand much about the brain and science is making progress but for me the benefit of these drugs greatly outweighed the bad.

michael
1:51 am September 15th, 2016

17 months off after a 7 month taper. I took klonopin for about 8 years , as prescribed. When tolerance really set in I knew something was really wrong. Memory and focus problems mainly. I didn’t know what it could be so I cut my Klonopin dose. Within 2 or 3 days I knew I was in for something unexpected. That was 3 years ago and it has been a battle to survive ever since.

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