By Teddy Brewskee
I ran into some demons…
Hello beautiful world. My name is Teddy Brewskee and I am a recovering addict. I have been clean off of Blues, which is the street name for Roxicets, now since May 14th 2012 (I do not count my days because while doing that I feel I add unneeded pressure to myself).
I have learned to live my life one day at a time in all aspects of life which has helped me tremendously. I have recently found my Dharma, or my purpose in life, and that is to help other people. I would like to start this off by telling you my story so you can relate to me and see I am an everyday normal person who had ran into some demons.
But my childhood was wonderful
I had no real family of origin issues typical for an addict. I grew up in a wonderful childhood in the beautiful suburbs of Manalapan, NJ. It is a beautiful place. There are no crimes, there are no gangs, no murders, no junkies, no crack heads or bums walking the blocks, or so it seems. It was a beautiful place to grow up. Great schools, 98% of the students graduate and go to college.
My parents did an amazing job at providing their children with the best childhood upbringing they could produce. We had your everyday normal family problems; some ran a little deeper, but nothing serious. I didn’t grow up in an alcoholic family, or one with drug abuse. My parents were always there for us, they never beat us. Every single day there was a home cooked meal. My mom handled 4 boys, held the house down, and went to work. She is a true saint and the greatest person in my eyes. Just a beautiful childhood.
So, what happened?
I bring up my childhood because I want to show parents and the kids that addiction had nothing to do with my upbringing. As a matter of fact my parents had always told me, SAY NO TO DRUGS. Drugs are bad, all it takes is one to get caught up. Peer pressure is for the weak minded I was told, just say NO. My entire life I grew up thinking drugs was bad. I looked down upon the kids who were doing drugs. I stayed away from them, I thought I was better than them. So the question is now what happened? Why are you a recovering addict, Teddy Brewskee?
I was a really good High School football player. I was varsity as a freshman, I was captain, All Shore, All Division, All District, Vince Lombardi Award winner. Then the second play of my senior homecoming I broke my ankle and never played again. All the colleges which were looking at me stopped looking and I was devastated. (I lost my purpose).
I got introduced to blues
I then graduated and got a job at a local restaurant. This is where I met an older woman, who was my boss, and we just hit it off. We started talking, hanging out. She was ten years older than I was, and it was amazing. However, she was into different things than I was. I was young, thinking with the wrong head, willing to try anything, and I did.
I tried my first blue with her. (I do not blame her.) In just a blink of an eye, years 18-22 were gone. Complete Arrested development.
I used to walk around thinking and saying I wasn’t an addict because I was addicted to blues. I refused to believe I had a problem because I was doing blues and they are made by doctors. I thought I was a better drug addict because I never injected myself. This is the insanity of addiction.
I’m starting my life over again
I am now 24 years old just starting my life but I am blessed. I tell you my story just to show you addiction isn’t just people whose childhoods are ruff, it’s not just the bum on the street. It’s everyone. Addiction is a disease and it does not discriminate. It can affect Mom, Dad, Sister, Brother, Teacher, Doctor, Priest, White, Black, Hispanic, all Religions.
Drugs to stay away from
Everything I am about to list is the same thing as Heroin, they are synthetic forms, and they are all opiates. Roxicets, Vicodin, Oxycontin, Percocet, Codeine, morphine, Dilaudid, Oxycodone, Buprenorphine Hydrochloride (Suboxone), Demerol, Methadone. This is just a small list. There are several others you should be aware of.
To the young people picking up drugs please know you are on a dark road which will devastate your family and loved ones. To the parents God Bless you stay strong and seek help and advice. I wish you all a wonderful day. God Bless!!!